expressing myself...

Sorry for posting late but this is the story of 7 august. I m still thinking from where to start writing, should it be the time I left for Delhi or the time i met her or the time i started feeling good and satisfied by meeting her.

That was long-off of mine and i had just thought to go to delhi but was not sure. Then suddenly, i got a call from her and she was feeling low. She missed me when she was alone and low, that is the only feeling that drove me crazy and compelled me to give my luck another chance of getting her. I had decided to leave for delhi without thinking or worrying about myself and situation.

I was very happy, with full of joy, with a tank full of energy to meet her. I was a little worried that how i will tackle the call from my home during the trip but overall, in a nutshell, i was more inclined to meet her anyhow, without caring about any other worldly thing.

So, i started my journey from Jagdishpur at 4:00 pm and luckily got the bus to Lucknow immediately after reaching the Bus-stop. That was the first sign of positivity for me. I got a window seat, took out my sony ericcson C510, played some beautiful, romantic songs and started listening them to fill the aura with her love. I was listening the songs and thinking bout her, bout what she would feel, bout how she would look like, bout what she would say. Likewise, i didnt realize when the bus reached lucknow station. That was 6:00 pm and my bus to Delhi was scheduled at 7:30 pm, so still i had margin to relax and wrap-up some of the pending works in Lucknow.

I went to ticket window and asked for next AC Sleeper bus ticket to Delhi but to my surprise, that bus was cancelled and there was only one bus at 8:30 pm, thanks to UP Parivahan Nigam, this is a normal thing here and one has to be prepared to meet such inconvenience. I was a little disappointed as i calculated that it would take 12 hrs to reach Delhi and i would spend 1 hr less with her. But this gave me enough time to complete all my work in Lucknow without any rush.

I took the auto and rushed to Hazaratganj to take out some money from ATM. I saw 2 beautiful creatures there. Actually working in a core company doesnt allow you to enjoy such moments, so whenever we come to Lucknow we try to take such images with us. At that moment also I was thinking of her only. Then i went to Nokia Care Centre and bought a battery for my Boss's Mobile. That was a very important work to be done as Boss is Boss, and we must give our best efforts to make him happy, then only we would be happy. So its a cyclic process, what you saw, that u reap. Well truly speaking, the fact was that it was a pending job which should have been completed a way before.:)

I came out of the shop, i still had 1.5 hrs left so i decided to eat something. I went to a cool(i mean hot, corner side shop) shop and had Masala Dosa. In that humid hot weather i was eating that delicious, hotty, masaledar dosa with a can of Diet Coke ( they didnt have anything else.:) ). Coming out of that shop, I was drenched with my own sticky, stinky sweat. ummmmm...and wats more, I wore no banyaan, hahahahaaha, what a tragedy it was. So i decided to go and buy a banyaan first. I went to a shop and asked for the banyaan, and believe me he reacted as if I came from another planet and asked him to give any part of my space suit. So, the answer was “no”. Surprised enough I went to another shop and asked the same unidentified thing , he also show me the way to door. Likewise I searched 3 shops in Hazaratganj and got disappointment only. But i tried in one more shop and to my surprize he recognised the word and took out one banyaan. I sighed and take a deep breath. I asked him to allow me to wear it in that shop only, he agreed and i came back with a banyaan on my body and of course a shirt also.

My next step was to take out the print out of my reservation slip from a cyber cafe. So, in that unknown new place, which is sometimes called the posh area of Lucknow with all nice gentlemen and gentlewomen shopping in big, biggest expensive shops, i started searching for a small cybercafe. I was pretty sure that i would get at least one or two there. But again i was wrong and there ws not a single cafe in that big area. I started searching here n there, with all small, narrow lanes, public places and would have definitely walked atleast 2 kms and that too, plz dont forget, in that humid hot weather, with chances of raining anytime. But i was not worried or shattered at all as i knew that after all these quests i would go and have a sound sleep in my AC sleeper bus. Then it started showering and my odor became more stinkier. Ummmmmmm. I was feeling restless then i got a small cyber cafe and that too on the second floor of a building which was very hard to find, even for the people of that area too.

Well, i completed my all works and it ws around 8:00pm when i reached the bus station to find the status of bus. I went to an AC waiting room to relax a little and feel good but as always some bad news was waiting for me there also. As i showed my ticket to the attendent he told me that the bus was cancelled at 8:30 also and there is only one bus and that too was NON AC sleeper at 9:00 pm. Believe me, I was laughing at the ultimate situation. Came out of that compartment with my headphones on my neck, thinking what to do. But the urge to go there and meet her was so strong that i decided to not to turn back and took that 9:00 pm bus ticket and i met a guy at the counter who said that he was trying to go to Delhi for past 3 days and could not be able to get any mode. That was the time when i felt contained.

So now i had 1 hr and one important work was to be done: calling home and make them believe that i m still in Jagdishpur. That was a slightly typical job for me. I came out of that stations and hurried to find a peaceful place to let them believe that i was still in my township.:). I know i have become somewhat clever and more than that a cheater but in India where loving is considered as crime, you have to take such steps otherwise these Daddy type of people will crush you and make bharta of yours. By chance i got such a place, that was a colony of some Sardars, a very peaceful place. You couldnt imagine that just a yard away there is harsh cacophony of this rapidly rising city.

I called and my mom picked up the call. She asked where i was and i told her that i was in township only.

I called and my mom picked up the call. She asked where i was and i told her that i was in township only. Things went smooth. i told her that i would leave for Lucknow next day and wont be able to call her.

Then I came back to the bus. The bus was in a damn worst condition. I stepped up, on window seat where i had to spend my whole night. I sighed that atleast I got a window seat. That was a two seater sleeper and someone else had to come beside me. I opened the window and started watching birds( u know wat i mean) but still missing her. It was a piece of dirty foam on which a white bedsheet was there, about 6 feet long on which i was lying. Listening some romantic songs on different radio stations of the city, i lied down. Bus startd at 9:15pm. I felt much better when wind started slapping my face. I thought that the night will pass easily. I would sleep easily in bus. I was happy and listening songs when suddenly i heard the roaring, hahahaha, roaring of clouds. Imagine, in such weather when no wind is flowing, not a single leaf of trees dancing,condition such a worse that if you stand for ten seconds you will be drowned in sweat, you get to know that after few minutes you have to close your window, the only source of wind in that overly crowded bus. How would u feel, how would you react? I know the answer. You would do nothing, you have no other choice but to except the situation and start enjoying the stinky smell of your body and the person besides you. Its "yuk" naa... But it's the bitter truth. hahahaahha...

So as time demanded, i closed the window perfectly as i really dont trust on UP buses. Even after closing window you may get drops of water pouring in. Well, within few seconds i fell asleep. I still remember that every hour or two i changed the position.

At last i woke up at around 7:15 am and opened the window. I saw a really beautiful and awesome scenery on the other side of window. Cool breeze of wind was blowing and kissing my face as if my gal kissing me from Delhi. I admire the nature and it’s sophisticated functions and take my hats off to such brilliant design of God. I took out my camera and captured the beauty. That was the time when bus stopped near a Dhaba. I came out of the bus, brushed and took few sip of tea. Felt good, now I was ready to meet her, I just had to change my shirt only.